Monday, January 25, 2010
Yesterday was pretty fun.
I did know that i love children but not these much.
Yesterday went out with my cc on a tour,saw this cute little 3 year old gal.
At first ,the gal was pretty scared of me and was not so friendly,but as time goes,the bond started to come,and we played in the bus haha.Really enjoy.She look like who die jiejie.Well pretty enjoyable ,she was so cute,i even saw little ella at a place haha.
WEll did a lot of shopping yesterday.Today ,boring to the core,tomorrow got interview,the next day got posting,29 got yog selections,30 and 31 got camp,1,2 feb got camp and 24,25 got camp hmm.More to come i think haha.
WEll ,saying i love you is not the words i want to hear from you.
IT not that i want you not to say but if you only knew.
Lyrics from a song.HAha i really love this song i guess.
Well maybe telling the truth was going to be hard,but it was not hard for me to tell ah cheng wad was going on really during last year,and having ah pris to tell me her true feelings to why we broke up.All this happen in one day.BUt all this is history as i know for sure that licheng had change and ah pris is getting kinder and kinder ,i think,she is a pretty okay gal just unsure of wad to do sometimes.
On saturday,suddenly feel so down after the smses.I suddenly heard the recording from my phone where the zz gals was singing.I sms them and really hope to see them,I hope to see them but whether it will happen ,it is up to us,Ruijun even said let meet in a country,but how to?So sad that both of us wanted to see each other untill meeting up in a country .Haiz,the feeling of these is just so painful when you know it is hard to achieve.
I wanted a listening ear,but when let just say,didnt found one when i needed one.
IN pain?
Troubled Boii
Saturday, January 23, 2010
Feel uneasy on 21,22 of jan.Feel just uneasy,and not worth it.
ON 21 jan was the ncc trainfire,went to hq early.Well still late haha.
Went to canteen and grab some snack.Saw my school march past and me and yang went and look,from their drills ,i know something needed to be done.
Well ,they gathered at the mph.Me and weiyang continue to eat,but my appetide ruined ,went to the mph,chatted a while and went to the canteen to find my teacher offircers,we chatted about a event and on today.Recieved information that my school can do two units,i tied the lost ends of the ropes,i made it happened,bvss completed two event,i been doing the background work,WAD ELSE DO U WANT FROM ME.During trainfire and when my school going for interactive field trip,i asisted lt khai,I help him answer all the questions clt have and standardise all the lesson and wad else they want me to do,they all were so comfortable without me so wad to do?I just help out when i saw something was wrong?WAD DID I DID WRONG,senior was not even there to teach us how it run,I learnt last week so i was covering all the work.
Hard the part when we were transfering rifle,lt khai told me to get 17 cadets from my school and i did but then amkal intercept the instruction and ask for 17 cadets with ezlink but wad can i do ,he higer rank,so i follow,there were so much confusion that i took things into my own hand with lt khai and segerant yuyuan.I control staff myself make it happen and let them carried on and everything turn out pretty ok,all the clts were with my school since the rest have left.When we were clearing up ,amkal and some clts wanted to play and ask 4 of my cadets to strip rifles without ground sheet ,it was so wrong,i ask they not to strip a=but none heeded my words,i ask lt khai about him and said i was right so i ask amkal to stop but he did listen but was un willing.
When it was done,i ask 30 cadets to bring a rifle each and we gather,feeling angry,i march the gals and 2 guy to arm cotts and make them rest there,knowing i was not feeling happy, they tried not to make me angry.
I was there preparing for the return of arms then suddenly,JUN HAO who took my guys with rifles scream and scolded me because of the standard of my unit,wad RIGHTS does he have to do so,screaming there like a mad dog.i feel so pissed off.I put that aside first and JUN hao ask them to form a row in fornt of arm cotts i was too pissed off that i control my cadets THANKS JEFF FOR UNDERSTANDING^^MU FEELINGS i ask my cadet to form a row facing the other block and check clear, and i ask them to form the row to oil and return arms,thanks jeff and amos for helping me keep the mags,and i went in and help in placement of the rifles and settled ,wei yang talk to cadets and jun hao and said he apologise ,I SAY WHERE GOT
WAD TO DO,SUCH A UNWORTH Day
Wad he did is so wrong.EVERYTHING he DID IS so wrong.
CALLINg ME LIKE HIS DOG,wait till no one want to serve him then see how,WHO IN COMMAND.IT look like me and wei yang to me,me being osman,yang as lee,jun xian(phoa leck)clearing up his mess.I FELT SO ANNoyed that i took part c to a remote and started training ,mr phoa was with me,i hope waleed ,sam and jia wei learnt something.well finishing my job ,i play and went sc to rest.
JOKE OF THE DAy,st john sec1 folow me for no reasons and cut the grass patch which they are not supposed to haha.
ah cheng cried so i was there for her.second part up later the happy part^^
ANGRY
Troubled Boii
Thursday, January 21, 2010
yesterday was fun for me
went out with frens
had a fun interview
nth much
Troubled Boii
Monday, January 18, 2010
This few nights ,i been having super weird dreams.It come to me so real that i didnt think it was a dream.
I dreamt of a silver UFO with lots of tiny white lights abducting people from my block and i was abducted too despite running around my block to prevent it.It was so impactful,it let me wondering...
Last night dreamt of being in the ntuc,with a lots of things happening,kena caught for something,debating,challenging the staff blah blah.Wad is wrong with me ,normally dreams hardly stick to me beside falling in love and sorrows,wad is happening?
Well it had been a joyful birthday this year for me.Family celebrated in the morning ,breaking singapore record in the afternoon and frens(wilson and jingwen)celebrated for me.Sang deep into my soul...But ended home pretty late,bus 51 home was freaking long.
Well ,huiyi ask me to ask the NYC about my application so i did,wonder wad is going on?I kept myself away from NCC now and i am pretty unsure about wad going on with my committee.NExt thurs got trainfire with my bro school and IMT soon after.Haiz,wad to do.
later going to meet jun xian for lunch and meeting mr osman at 3 haiz ,wad to do.
due to irregular meetings and commitment wad to do,cannot find a stable job,maybe mac will but haiz wad to do.
Wad TO DO
Troubled boii
Saturday, January 16, 2010
Well after the sec1 camp i learnt a lot of things,such things cannot be express verbally but can be experience.This change me quite a lot.Being at the dialogue in the dark was fun for me,i learnt quite a few things.I learnt that being in the dark with only gals can be fun if u do not do anything wrong^^it was a good experience^^met wenxi and become good fren.Well had a terrible nite at np so went home pretty early.
sunday early morning was so tired,went to the cc and back since our service not needed ,then slp more.Went out in the early evening brought a lot of things.
Monday was pretty intense,getting o level results.At first was sad to see my results but after some time seeing it on the other side it is quite fun and challenging .Got 2 a1,1 a2,3b3 one d7.Going tp IFM perhas^^.
went for trainfire on thurs made new frens from AHS ,hope they enjoyed.
LAst nite add AbBie and we chatted off and became frens le^^
so fun and cool to know another.
Today my birthday got a lots of wished.Chat with karine ,got her number ,got yen yen and tiffany one as well.
Thanks lizanne,amanda n amelia,haziq, jing wen,mei jin,jun xian,siangkiat,
see cheng,ellis^^,elaine chiy,yan ping,keith,amir,annisa,angeline,karine,huiwen,
licheng,dionne,fiona pang,kim soya,naqib,Abbie^^,jasmine,yayah,yu hui,
jie wei, mariam , alica, gabriel, jin feng , sandy , jin long , wilson ,
justin chew, chee kia, WenXI ,Zi ying^^,tiffany,yang kai,shan leong and yenyen
Tuesday, January 5, 2010
Well,it is the firth day of 2010 le.Wow time has past so fast.
Wow last night was pretty interesting for me.
I watched hi my sweetheart with my brother and i found it quite nice.
I heard chong dong by elva by a girl last night and was tasked to comment about it.Well i do not know if it was my first time or second time as i had a feeling someone sang to me before Oh now i remember,it was by Zinan or jiaxu or ruijun.She play a traditional instrument.Well speaking of which ,i remember when they were still in singapore ,we would sing together and record it but manage to record only one song.Well it has been a year and so,still miss them.Oh ya ,yesterday morning was on qq and leran chatted with me,wow she change so much ,she become more chio le,she look similar with shanshan in the promise by channel u.
Well,memories memories.Such wonderful memories never lasted long but will impact us the most and never to be forgotten.I miss having video chat with them.I wonder how they are doing?
Back to singopore.Later need to meet faizah and go hq.For a meeting,sian,i guess i do not want to hide the fact that i am losing passion in ncc.Feeling so sian when such a simple affirmation can have so many problems.
Well,i Found out then i like to chat with Elaine Choy,she seems to be there whenever i need her.Such a wonderful friend made in primary school ,despite not really close to her in primary school and seperated for 4 years ,we still remain good friends,i just love my primary school bonds ,it is so strong that it never dies,not like my secondary school bonds.However had pretty strong bonds with juniors maybe spent more time with them and have more fun with them.
This is JiaXu
This is LeRan
THis is ZiNan
THis is RuiJun
Wondering
Troubled Boii
Monday, January 4, 2010
Today is 4 Jan,the day my brother have a new start in his school as a sec3 student now.
For me,i am doing nothing at home but house chores.
There are so many things in my small little brain.
Results?Work?money?ncc?poly?which poly?which choice?Tp open house?sp open house?np open house?contact frens?catch up?my juniors?
All these are making my mind go crazy,swimming in a whirlpool,if u can imagine.
IT has not made me think properly,which to prioritise ?
In a new year and so many options and path laid for me,spoilt for choices but there always a deadline to the closure of one path.Everyday is a new path,if u watch fringe you might get wad i meant.Everyday is full of choices which make your life the way it is,it is those small choices that built up your life.
Being lonely is how you feel,you can choose it or do not choose it,it is in the matter of choice.
I have given up a job chance just to have a great time with my friends and my birthday.
Last night was the deadline to choosing job or friends,i chose friends,with my mind in a whirlpool,thank Meijin and Ellis which had stood by me and help me,they may not know how great help they have been even though it is just a few sms.
Well,what a way to start the new year.Wonder what is laid in front today,i always hard that on one day so many things can happen and clash at the same time,i hope i can manage and make the day the way i want it.
Well,be it good results or bad results.
Both has its good and bad.
However ,just think positive and you will handle it well.
Be it tp,np or sp,all are good polys with different course that attracted me.
I agree with the four brother in taohuaxiaomei that everyday is a battlefield for girls and guys,all of us are also looking at the opposite sex no matter where they are ,just hoping to find the one,but many look but no progress is made.HOwever ,the experience ,the stare and glare will impacted 2 lifes if they were meant to be friends or a higher knot.
When ever i go out,there seem to be people i am familiar with but they may not,it is because one look and if you remember ,many people will look familiar.
I thought i saw PEter Lau yesterday with a pretty girl.
I saw another version of ELLIs haha.
Well,pretty boring at home,losing passion for NCC again...
Troubled troubled
Troubled Boii
Saturday, January 2, 2010
IT is now the second day of the new year 2010.
HOwever ,eveerything seems quiet,nothing much is happening.
Everyone is lonely fo something which they do not know.THe feeling is just there.
Want to chat with people but who to chat with?Noone knows the answer not even myself.
After watching fourth kind,i found aliens more scary than ghost.
IT made me scared when i wake up at or wake up at 3.33am.
Now ,i have 3 options i want after the results.
in no order of preference
Integrated facilities management by tp
Human resource management with psycology by sp
Tourism and resort management by np
Well i am aiming at the management course as i think i found a passion in it something special about it that draws me closer to my life.
Everythings seem normal...
If i go tp ,i would be lonely.If i go sp,i would be feeling weird.If i go np,I would be reacting strangly.
I got friends in sp and np but not tp.
Well do not know what i talking about.
Well ,sleep before the countdown which was very forced by parents.
Did a short version of spring cleaning on the first day of the new year.
Well guess it is weird.
Still need to handle NCC stuffs.
Going to eat
Weird
Troubled Boii